In the Cabin

well.
here am i, in my cabin, my small little piece of privacy in this ship.Im listening Radiohead
im chillin out for an hour before go to stup studios wich is one of the things i hate about
being photographer on ship.Setup and breakdown every day.
Im taking very easy this contract.i have more free time,im resting more...
learning to have my time to do things i like ,edit photos,write,listening music.The bad thing
on being more free is that time pass a little bit slowly...now i have time to miss all the people..
to think more...etc..
but for one reason i think im goping to grow up after this contract.Im having ideas about my future,
what to do...finding myself maybe.
i cannot read books here..cause if i sit to read i fall sleep LOL..and i hate to sleep a lot.
but at nights im sleeping ok, more than 4 hours, no like tha last contract.
parties here sucks anyway..there no back deck only a smelly little hole when everyone smokes and with to
loud music to have a nice conversation.anyway, that place is almost empty always.I dont know
what people do here to relax...is weird..but im having a nice ,quiet life.
hope this dont take me to feel depressed or dismotivated.now what i really really want its a good companion
to go aorund europe, places etc..but i know that i need more time too.I need to know more people than photogs.
I feel no pressure,  no stress, maybe cause i know my job already, and for now we dont have a BM,so nobody is
giving us shit,im going to keep this quiet rythm for now, but i realized that im not that smiley like before.
Im starting losing weight,but just cause the food here is good,you can choose everything you like on the buffet
restaurant.For example my dinner last night was, a nice letucce,corn,tomato,shrimps salad,with a piece of roasted duck
tea and a slice of bread...nice uh?.
Yesterday i went to walk to the city of Pireus,next to Athens in Greece.I liked cause it was so so so familiar.and
amazing churches.i went into one..it has some Bizantine painting outside,when i opened the door...i had to close it again
it was a Big real Shock! for my eyes.this is one of my fav arts in the world..i never thought that maybe i could see
a church for real like this one.i opened the door again i i couldnt believe my eyes..every single piece of church was
painting with bizantine art..full of golden borders,OMG.a lady standed uo and said " sorry but u cannot take pictures or video"
i wanted to kill her in that moment but the only thing i did was stay quiet with my mouth open watching everything.
that was a magic and important moment in my life.but the person next to me didnt know...and i wanted to share this with someone.
thats why i want now someone who likes this things like me...amazing.
Tomorrow im going to change my cabin...im living now with Lee,whos a great guy,nice and quiet.But still hes a guy, and we have to to
share bathroom,wich is always a little problem for girls.so im going to live with Antonija,the girl of the team wich i get along very well.
Its better this way,even i would rather to live with Lee.but ok..i dont care so much.
"Let down"..sounds, and i realized that i miss my more deep,creative side.i need to start to create.
Miss u guys.Wich to take you all in my bag and hang around all together.Love xx