"Habia una vez ..el hombre en su inicio, era un gigante de dos cabezas,
Zeus se sintio intimidado por su felicidad y grandeza, entonces los partio por la mitad,
desde ahi k uno busca su otra parte y no se es 100% feliz hasta k la encuentras" el dijo..
yo cante... "The origin of Love".
Hermosa noche llena de gratas sorpresas.
El dijo.
lunes, 18 de julio de 2011
Hedonism
Am i scaping of myself? do i hang around just with people who is like me? dont all of us do that?
im a completely selfdestructive person...i realized, when im sad..i lock myself..indoors, guitar, silence,cigs and dark thoughts.
but when im happy, nothings matter to me neither.the moment is everything...future nothing.im a caving my own graveyard?..dont we all
do the same?...why do i feel different then? Jhonny , Morrisey , Kurt , Layne, Thom , Jim, Richard. My inner friends hang with me at this time...
inmerse in a world without future,a world of now.filling the room with smoke til i dissapear.and i dont feel bad, i feel in a weird comfort.
"the comfort of being sad" said Kurt."My Videotape" to all, a window to one slow light crossing every single bone, flesh and veins.
Sadness and happines are just moments, so what am i.the feeling of nothing between them? a hope?
Looking throught a window how life happens o others while im still here.looking for something.
Hedonism will take me to some point? soon, i know.
im a completely selfdestructive person...i realized, when im sad..i lock myself..indoors, guitar, silence,cigs and dark thoughts.
but when im happy, nothings matter to me neither.the moment is everything...future nothing.im a caving my own graveyard?..dont we all
do the same?...why do i feel different then? Jhonny , Morrisey , Kurt , Layne, Thom , Jim, Richard. My inner friends hang with me at this time...
inmerse in a world without future,a world of now.filling the room with smoke til i dissapear.and i dont feel bad, i feel in a weird comfort.
"the comfort of being sad" said Kurt."My Videotape" to all, a window to one slow light crossing every single bone, flesh and veins.
Sadness and happines are just moments, so what am i.the feeling of nothing between them? a hope?
Looking throught a window how life happens o others while im still here.looking for something.
Hedonism will take me to some point? soon, i know.
sábado, 9 de julio de 2011
Safe Music
well..Interesting feeling around...specially being bored...interesting cause theres still
places the i dont know and i dont have no even one month on this ship, but its true..its a boring one
but, thats makes me a sad but inspirated person.so..something good must have.
i definetly love italy, has so much history,its a city full of life!impresive, u feel small walking trough the
beautiful walls, uncontable bridges, u fell like u want to get lost!oh..how much i would love to live there...
and i still dont get the point of the Gondolas, the little boats that ride you thruogh Venice.They r so expensive and its the same
that to use the Vaporetto, or water taxis.well in gondolas just 2 people and vaporetto 50 XD.But Venice has this romance feeling around
to be surrounded of music, fine arts and an antique city,fuul of dark and small streets with restaurants,mmmm
impressive the fact that theres no streets at all! i mean..for cars, u walk through venice and theres no cars at all!you only walk,and its great.
i came back at 4 am,i was drinking wine and beer with 2 photogs and 2 italian guys that we knew in a restaurant.Lovely, to have this little piece of
reality, get to know new people,thats seems to be easier outside now,(on my last ship was so easy to know people..here.nobody even say hi)
walk at night,to hear the sound of the night,and get lost.
I think im starting to miss back home...and my feeling are that maybe ill no finish this contract...cause till now monotony can kill me,
thats why im planning some fun stuff to do here.By know...i miss my friends.and i cover myself with music thats makes me feel safe.
places the i dont know and i dont have no even one month on this ship, but its true..its a boring one
but, thats makes me a sad but inspirated person.so..something good must have.
i definetly love italy, has so much history,its a city full of life!impresive, u feel small walking trough the
beautiful walls, uncontable bridges, u fell like u want to get lost!oh..how much i would love to live there...
and i still dont get the point of the Gondolas, the little boats that ride you thruogh Venice.They r so expensive and its the same
that to use the Vaporetto, or water taxis.well in gondolas just 2 people and vaporetto 50 XD.But Venice has this romance feeling around
to be surrounded of music, fine arts and an antique city,fuul of dark and small streets with restaurants,mmmm
impressive the fact that theres no streets at all! i mean..for cars, u walk through venice and theres no cars at all!you only walk,and its great.
i came back at 4 am,i was drinking wine and beer with 2 photogs and 2 italian guys that we knew in a restaurant.Lovely, to have this little piece of
reality, get to know new people,thats seems to be easier outside now,(on my last ship was so easy to know people..here.nobody even say hi)
walk at night,to hear the sound of the night,and get lost.
I think im starting to miss back home...and my feeling are that maybe ill no finish this contract...cause till now monotony can kill me,
thats why im planning some fun stuff to do here.By know...i miss my friends.and i cover myself with music thats makes me feel safe.
domingo, 3 de julio de 2011
In the Cabin
well.
here am i, in my cabin, my small little piece of privacy in this ship.Im listening Radiohead
im chillin out for an hour before go to stup studios wich is one of the things i hate about
being photographer on ship.Setup and breakdown every day.
Im taking very easy this contract.i have more free time,im resting more...
learning to have my time to do things i like ,edit photos,write,listening music.The bad thing
on being more free is that time pass a little bit slowly...now i have time to miss all the people..
to think more...etc..
but for one reason i think im goping to grow up after this contract.Im having ideas about my future,
what to do...finding myself maybe.
i cannot read books here..cause if i sit to read i fall sleep LOL..and i hate to sleep a lot.
but at nights im sleeping ok, more than 4 hours, no like tha last contract.
parties here sucks anyway..there no back deck only a smelly little hole when everyone smokes and with to
loud music to have a nice conversation.anyway, that place is almost empty always.I dont know
what people do here to relax...is weird..but im having a nice ,quiet life.
hope this dont take me to feel depressed or dismotivated.now what i really really want its a good companion
to go aorund europe, places etc..but i know that i need more time too.I need to know more people than photogs.
I feel no pressure, no stress, maybe cause i know my job already, and for now we dont have a BM,so nobody is
giving us shit,im going to keep this quiet rythm for now, but i realized that im not that smiley like before.
Im starting losing weight,but just cause the food here is good,you can choose everything you like on the buffet
restaurant.For example my dinner last night was, a nice letucce,corn,tomato,shrimps salad,with a piece of roasted duck
tea and a slice of bread...nice uh?.
Yesterday i went to walk to the city of Pireus,next to Athens in Greece.I liked cause it was so so so familiar.and
amazing churches.i went into one..it has some Bizantine painting outside,when i opened the door...i had to close it again
it was a Big real Shock! for my eyes.this is one of my fav arts in the world..i never thought that maybe i could see
a church for real like this one.i opened the door again i i couldnt believe my eyes..every single piece of church was
painting with bizantine art..full of golden borders,OMG.a lady standed uo and said " sorry but u cannot take pictures or video"
i wanted to kill her in that moment but the only thing i did was stay quiet with my mouth open watching everything.
that was a magic and important moment in my life.but the person next to me didnt know...and i wanted to share this with someone.
thats why i want now someone who likes this things like me...amazing.
Tomorrow im going to change my cabin...im living now with Lee,whos a great guy,nice and quiet.But still hes a guy, and we have to to
share bathroom,wich is always a little problem for girls.so im going to live with Antonija,the girl of the team wich i get along very well.
Its better this way,even i would rather to live with Lee.but ok..i dont care so much.
"Let down"..sounds, and i realized that i miss my more deep,creative side.i need to start to create.
Miss u guys.Wich to take you all in my bag and hang around all together.Love xx
here am i, in my cabin, my small little piece of privacy in this ship.Im listening Radiohead
im chillin out for an hour before go to stup studios wich is one of the things i hate about
being photographer on ship.Setup and breakdown every day.
Im taking very easy this contract.i have more free time,im resting more...
learning to have my time to do things i like ,edit photos,write,listening music.The bad thing
on being more free is that time pass a little bit slowly...now i have time to miss all the people..
to think more...etc..
but for one reason i think im goping to grow up after this contract.Im having ideas about my future,
what to do...finding myself maybe.
i cannot read books here..cause if i sit to read i fall sleep LOL..and i hate to sleep a lot.
but at nights im sleeping ok, more than 4 hours, no like tha last contract.
parties here sucks anyway..there no back deck only a smelly little hole when everyone smokes and with to
loud music to have a nice conversation.anyway, that place is almost empty always.I dont know
what people do here to relax...is weird..but im having a nice ,quiet life.
hope this dont take me to feel depressed or dismotivated.now what i really really want its a good companion
to go aorund europe, places etc..but i know that i need more time too.I need to know more people than photogs.
I feel no pressure, no stress, maybe cause i know my job already, and for now we dont have a BM,so nobody is
giving us shit,im going to keep this quiet rythm for now, but i realized that im not that smiley like before.
Im starting losing weight,but just cause the food here is good,you can choose everything you like on the buffet
restaurant.For example my dinner last night was, a nice letucce,corn,tomato,shrimps salad,with a piece of roasted duck
tea and a slice of bread...nice uh?.
Yesterday i went to walk to the city of Pireus,next to Athens in Greece.I liked cause it was so so so familiar.and
amazing churches.i went into one..it has some Bizantine painting outside,when i opened the door...i had to close it again
it was a Big real Shock! for my eyes.this is one of my fav arts in the world..i never thought that maybe i could see
a church for real like this one.i opened the door again i i couldnt believe my eyes..every single piece of church was
painting with bizantine art..full of golden borders,OMG.a lady standed uo and said " sorry but u cannot take pictures or video"
i wanted to kill her in that moment but the only thing i did was stay quiet with my mouth open watching everything.
that was a magic and important moment in my life.but the person next to me didnt know...and i wanted to share this with someone.
thats why i want now someone who likes this things like me...amazing.
Tomorrow im going to change my cabin...im living now with Lee,whos a great guy,nice and quiet.But still hes a guy, and we have to to
share bathroom,wich is always a little problem for girls.so im going to live with Antonija,the girl of the team wich i get along very well.
Its better this way,even i would rather to live with Lee.but ok..i dont care so much.
"Let down"..sounds, and i realized that i miss my more deep,creative side.i need to start to create.
Miss u guys.Wich to take you all in my bag and hang around all together.Love xx
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